Well, the other day (and yesterday) I failed, busted out a vintage and poured a glass (or three…) I’m embarrassed, but at least I didn’t do anything wrong, just listened to music, perused the internet, and chatted with my husband. Went to bed too early, but is it really too early to fall asleep at 6:30pm, when you woke up at 3:25am?

I did better the next day, and got a lot done! I run a business selling Paper Antiquities (https://www.ebay.com/str/purveyorofpaper).

I’m also taking 18 Credit Hours between two colleges, and have a very, very, needy twenty-three year old daughter, a husband (who needs me just slightly less), two amazing dogs, two incredibly busy nine-month old kittens, and a home to care for. Not to mention I am in the middle of suing the company that destroyed my late father’s pickup (https://www.sasserklein.com),

This and more makes for a whole lot of work, but honestly, if I weren’t constantly battling the schools to get their shit together on everything from transfer credit, degree plans, and financial aid, my life would be a little easier (not that life is supposed to ever be easy…but as everyone knows, if some people knew how to do their fucking jobs-how do they get them?-then the rest of us wouldn’t have to do it for them!

Today I’ve done even better, fixed some kinks in my websites, and am about to load up over two-hundred listings on eBay (follow the link if you’re interested)! Plus, today is supposed to be the day my daughter’s boyfriend asks my husband for her hand. We adore him, the answer is PLEASE! I heard he already bought the ring!

So today should be better! I hope you all are finding peace, looking out for one another, and taking care of yourselves! I’m trying, my level best, but you know how it goes…

Thank you for reading! Your replies are always appreciated!

~EylaRay

JUDGE & MISHA

~The Two Amazing Dogs~

This will be my first post in many years (all others have been deleted).  I find myself wanting to first explain that I’m not in a great place.  The stresses of several events in the recent past, and those upcoming are starting (or continuing) to bear down on me daily.  I find myself overwhelmed and a nervous wreck most of the time.  I’ll delve into the details of what lead me here as I post more, but for today, I’m trying to push through, keep my chin up, and head above water…Just as I’m sure many of you are.  Together, or at least reading this, and myself reading your stories and replies I hope we can find some relief!

There is nothing off-topic here (though bad actors, trolls, and those with wicked intentions will be blocked of course!)

So for today, I say this, my husband is also a nervous wreck about many things, money, work, weight and for the both of us, the too recent, but now too long decision to add alcohol to our lives to cope.  This is certainly not new to many of you, and now we’ve come heavily under it’s thumb.  Promising each day to get better, stopping, and then starting again too frequently and to excess.  It helps for a short time, then we’re left with the fallout…What did we do? What did we say?  The embarrassment of it all is only making things worse!  So, for now, I leave you with this, today I won’t, and not tomorrow either is my hope, nor the day after that.

The incredible weight bearing down on me will make it hard, but I will try…and I will be honest about those things, and my attempts to do better in my next post!

Thank you for reading! Your replies are always appreciated!

~EylaRay